Well we've had kind of a rough couple of weeks. I believe Glen is feeling more ill, and as a result is showing greater awareness that he has a terminal illness. The first indication was before our friends Peter and Patti came to visit. The night before he said to me "I wonder if I'm even going to be here tomorrow." I did my best to reassure him that of course he would.

One day he was looking sad and when asked, said he was thinking about his older brother and how they hadn't really gotten along well during Glen's "formative years." (His phraseology is still fascinating sometimes) He also confided that he felt his chances of seeing his brother again were about 50/50. Bob is in Alaska until September. The next evening I was sitting with him while he was falling asleep, and for the first time since his diagnosis a year ago, he actually cried. I asked him what he thought was going to happen and he said "I'm just going to fade away." He made me cry too. We spent some time talking about whether he believed he was going to see his mom and dad (yes) and my mom and dad (yes) and my brother... which elicited a little grin. I said waiiiiit a minute... you two aren't going to be giving me a hard time are you? Another grin. "Hey.. I don't want any shenanigans from you two!" I actually got a little giggle.

These conversations always happen right before he goes to sleep in the evening. During the day he was becoming much more agitated and much more "inappropriate." We have made a fairly large increase in his meds, and for now it seems to be helping, AND he seems to be sleeping through the night.

On a happier note, progress on the yard has moved along fairly quickly and we were able to take Glen out in back today and show him the new raised beds for the veggie garden, the framing for the arbor and the finished patio. Of course he wanted to walk over and gaze into the pool.. he's really looking forward to going into the water. [note to all: no water goes in the pool until it is fenced] Finally got the refi on the house approved too, so everything moves forward with less stress!

For those of you who are my Facebook friends there are a few photos of the yard posted on my page. If anyone else wants to see them, just ask and I can e-mail them to you.